So after every intention to post more regularly my body decided to give up on me and need more time and handling from the NHS.... Thankfully all on the road to recovery
My last few posts have been a little negative and despite living with PND I'm a very positive person, most of the time.... Therefore this post is more of a moment for me too stop, breathe and smile.
I make no hidden fact that almost 3 years on and I still have days where I'm glad I still have treatment but my life is starting to feel right and that's all down to one thing, a smile - from my beautiful daughter.
Her happiness is contagious and ignites that warm feeling (not a hot flush ... They're a whole different subject) that makes me realise the light is still shinning.
On the way to visit my grandparents today Lylha was singing along to Elli Goulding and she only knows the "eeee eeee" bit (you know what I mean) and she just blurted out "mummy its going to be ok because she said so" iv no idea what sparked this comment but hearing your child say those words does 2 things, 1 makes you feel guilty there is a reason they should want things to be ok - but more importantly it makes you stop, breathe and smile!
After all iv harped on enough about the power of smiling!
For those that follow me on twitter @laurindaisla will know that I often quote "life isn't about waiting on the storm too pass its about learning to dance in the rain" Well, Lylha, thank you for teaching me to salsa in the storm. I love you